why? it hit me tonight, that i really dont deserve anything i have in life and that its not fair that i am so blessed. every time i think of africa or south asia or basically anywhere outside of the united states and europe my heart just breaks. i thank God that i was lucky enough to be born here, but i wish that all those kids in other countries didnt have to miss out on things that i take for granted. like clean water. our power bill was really high one month so jeremy turned off the water heater for a month so we had cold showers. and i complained the whole month. i mean i really like my hot showers right? but i mean i should be thankful i have a shower, that i have a job, that i dont have to worry about starving or where i am going to sleep at night, or even if ill wake up in the morning, much less wish i wouldnt. it just tears me apart. i think i am going to try to help out anyway i can. i looked at blood:water mission a while back and i think i am goin to try to get that started at midtown. get the promo video and send it around to the life groups. get this stat. 1 dollar is clean water for 1 african FOR A YEAR. i throw my pennies away. im retarded and ungrateful. the end. like ive always wanted to adopt a boy from africa and invisible children solidified that. but i want to do more than that. i want to make as much as a difference as i can. no more being wasteful. im goin to start giving my money to people who help and im goin to try to get others to help out as well. maybe if the Lord wills it ill go to africa and help and fall in love with a kid and bring him home forever and raise him to love the Lord. i can only pray. so here it is guys. my call to you. dont be wasteful, dont be ungrateful. help the world out. we are the american church. we spend tens of millions of dollars on a building. can we be more self centered? its no wonder the so called "third world countries" are sending missionaries here. we are the great christian nation. every american is a christian or so it seems. but we are probably one of the most morally messed up countries ever. in the history of the world. i mean we are screwed up. i thank God for people like bailey, klash, jay and garret who want to impact the american church and save it from itself. i am blessed to be a part of midtown. a church that actually looks away from itself and to the community. so here is my charge. look outside of yourself. realize the world is messed up and unbalanced and its because of sin. spread the love of Christ, not because its the christian thing to do, but because it is life and everyone needs it. screw your comfort zone. so here's to africa. a place i want to love, a place i want to help, a place that needs the church. so lets step up.